Thursday, 15 May 2014

A Cry



Having pizza is like, the best thing that ever happens to Amit. He leaves home and when his parents ask with whom he is going all he says is, “with some friends”. He lies to his parents every time he goes out alone whether to have pizza or just for a ride. The main reason for not telling his parents that he goes out alone is he does not want to hear make-some-friends lecture. It’s not that he never tried. Since the time he has learnt to walk, every day he tries to make friends he fails. He does not understand what to say when people are talking to him. While in 5th std, someone said, “you know what, today was the worst day of my life. Teacher caught me playing cross and zero game during the class”. The only reaction that he gave was of an “okay”. He could have said that there was no need of playing during the class but he could not. Speaking with people is not something that he does or he can do.

Manish never lies at home about going out with friends. That is because his friends don’t go out to visit some places or for just casual outings. Manish is the guy who wants to go out, see people, places, taste new food and know about new culture but does not because his friends do not go out. He fears to be left alone. When he is with people he feels that there is a light that helps him to see and there is oxygen that helps him to breath. It’s in a way like, he has legs but he is being controlled by his friends. He allows them to do that because he believes that keeping them happy will keep him in their company for a long time.

While making presentations Amit often works alone as no one is ready to work with him. His not-talking-to-anybody attitude goes against him every time students are divided in a group. If he by any chance gets in a group, he keeps quite because he feels that nobody will listen to him. He stands out, with group but all alone lost in his thoughts of what he could have done if he were working alone. He does not make any kind of attempt to mix with people. During break time or any time when he is out, he often sees couples sitting. That does not make him jealous of not having a girlfriend but make him think about being with a better girl. Though being aware of his failed attempt to talk to girls tell him that it will never be possible to get a girl, but couples for some reason take him to a parallel world where he imagines himself with a more beautiful girl.

Manish never faces the problem of not getting into a group. When divided he is the first one to get in a group. But this does not make him feel like a gold medalist. During the discussion of the topic his voice goes unheard. No one cares what he is speaking. He speaks continuously trying hard to get heard but he does not. If his point gets into notice then someone by using any way criticizes him, says his point in a better way and takes away all the credit. He never speaks a word knowing that whatever is happening is not right. He just does not want to lose his membership of the group. He continues to compromise only for the sake of being in a group. While eating anywhere his friends make him pay more by saying that total amount would equally be distributed. Even after calculating correctly he ends up paying 3 times his amount. So if he eats for 50 INR, he in a way ends up paying 150 INR.

There is always a time when one season changes, every year your class changes (provided you pass) and people change. Some change for good and some change for bad. There comes a time when Amit and Manish decide to change. Amit after gathering lots of guts decides to join a group and Manish decides to make a friend who would understand him. The group in which Amit tries to fit is the group of which Manish is a part of and the guy to whom Manish sees and think of talking to is Amit. Their desire to take a stand socially in life introduces them to each other. When Amit goes to the group, no one but Manish shows interest in talking. Group without caring for the introduction continues to talk among each other. This gives Amit and Manish some time to know each other.

During the talk they do not realize that they have already found a real friendship in each other. Amit gets a friend in front of whom he does not get nervous and Manish gets a friend who listens to him with all the respect that he deserves as a person. Now after five years of passing from the college they share their experiences with each other every time they meet. While listening to their experiences Amit’s wife and Manish’s girlfriend lose control and laugh a lot. They have now started to take their past as a joke after learning from it.

In each other’s company, they have learnt a lot socially. Now Amit does not get nervous when he meets new people and Manish has understood that self respect is not something that you should compromise with but it is something that every human deserves.